Beyond Thursday

Around 4 this morning I woke up feeling sick because I couldn't remember what a holder in due course was or the elements of negotiability. I almost got up to check my notes, but I refused to let this stupid exam take that much control over my life. Up until now, I've been sleeping fine. Maybe my studying yesterday threw me off a bit. I did some MBE questions and did pretty well (confidence boost!) and then proceeded to totally suck on the civ pro and evidence portion (I'm gonna fail!). Sometimes I wish, "you can't do that" were an acceptable response.

I did essays this afternoon and will do some minimal studying tonight and tomorrow. It is over at this point. I'm pretty sure I can hit 70% (well, 67.5%), which is all I need. A new concern I have is that my handwriting blows. I've had daymares where I fail the bar and then get a letter saying that the bar examiners simply couldn't decipher the scratches I turned in as my answers and thus were forced to fail me.

To distract me from all of this, last night and this morning I obsessively planned my bar trip. I decided to rearrange my itinerary and skip southern Sarawak. Even though it sounds totally cool, I need to have more buffer time for when things go wrong or when I have to sit around for a day or so. Malaysia seems really developed, but I think this is a trick. I had to remember the finely honed skills I learned in the land where everything is broken. I'm focusing on this park and diving with lots of great filler in between. I'm still working on the dive part; I originally planned to just show up and look for dive operators and accomodation since the resorts are super-expensive, but I'm thinking that might be a bit risky. I may do a stationary live-aboard on a reconfigured oil rig.

So, there is life beyond the bar. I'll be in a jungle in South East Asia in two weeks whether or not I can answer the question about the negotiability of a draft received by an alleged holder in due course.